I am sure a lot of you who suffer from Fibromyalgia (in particular) and chronic pain will relate to this post.
On Friday we had the best news ever, that our daughter had said ‘yes’ to the love of her life when he asked her to become his wife. We could not be happier.
Of course ‘excitement’ for the whole weekend was what you might call ‘par for the course’ we just wished they didn’t live so far away. But with all the best technology nowadays we could interact quite easily as she told us of her surprise.
Consequently a good nights sleep which is something so infrequent these days was not on the cards for me at the weekend. My brain would just not slow down no matter how tired I was.
After finally getting down to the point of finding out ‘when’ the inevitable will happen, it actually became as a bit of release to know that there was no rush on for this to be sorted. They moved in May to a lovely home which they plan to totally transform and is the top of their list for the time being.
But, why should I feel release? Well its because of that awful pain that rains down on you when you suddenly slow down and the adrenalin stops rushing through your organs. Then when you do completely relax you feel much worse.
‘Sleep deprivation’ in Fibromyalgia leaves you with a feeling that you just want to go to sleep at any time of the day. Yet if you do go to sleep you actually wake up feeling no better but want more sleep. It is a real downer of this nasty disease.
What it did make me realise is that if I want to enjoy every second (which of course I do) of planning this future wedding with my daughter then pacing will have to be the order of the day everyday.